Hehe! Just say I'm greedy or crazy, but just want to wish myself to have a supaaar happy birthday this year =) Unlike last year, which I think it was the worst birthday ever. Thou there won't be much celebrations this year, since so many are preparing or having papers (won't blame you guys for that, blame on uni schedule! =x) Still, I would love to have a nice, enjoyable outing when everything is over ^^

Many of you asked what do I want this year. To be frank, I really don't know. But I do know what I want for my wishes when three little candles lid in front of me. I wish good health for everyone, good grades for everyone and good luck for everyone =)))

Watched 2012 movie last week. It's good and frightening! Good as in the movie effect, the plot and the way they filmed it, all goooooooood~ Frightening as in the story, will it really happen in 2012? Though it is just a movie, who can predict what's really going to happen in future?

*SIGH* Too high hopes and pressure which made myself to be over-stressed. I could only blame myself for pushing myself too far..

Written papers this time round were all badly done. I could feel that my GPA will drop tremendously this sem. Haiz.... Who the hell will read 'open-source company' as 'outsourcing', and that will be you Jacqueline! Wasted 15mins writing a fucking passage about outsourcing, in the end realised it's a question about open source! Really, seriously, fucked up! So many questions were so tricky that I don't even understand nor what it is trying to dig out of me!! GAHHHH!
C++ paper was too much. Spent about 1hour on question 1 to do a fucking coding program, in the end I had to rush through question 2 and 3 which I think won't score much and I didn't have enough time to do the last question. So bye-bye 15marks.. I'm so-over-too kind to donate 15marks back to the tutor.

Why......... What did I do wrong this time?? Did I lack of revision? Or did I push myself too much?? What's wrong......... sighhhhh............

Wish list achieved this year:-
- Bought desktop w Razer accessories
- Bought Louis Vuitton Neverfull
- Bought and fixed DVD player and installed Amp in Sunny
- Bought table lamp
- Bought new slippers
- Bought A-mei's concert tix (looking forward!!!!!!!!!)
- Last but not least, finally gotten my SATIO! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
The hole in my pocket is sooooooooooo bigggggggggggg~~~ ohhhhhhhhmyyyyyyyygoddddd~~~ BUT! I'm very satisfied and happy over what i bought =D~~~
Almost got an 'heart-attack' over my N95.. Just so you know, when i'm trading in phone, it's ultra creepy and scary!! Previously when I was trading in my K800 for N95 at Singtel store, K800's camera couldn't work on the spot! In the end had to go home and update the software until midnight =___= Today, after 2hours of waiting at Singtel, when about to trade N95 for Satio, my N95 keep hanged and had to restart like 10 times before it works =_________=||| As though it knows i'm changing a new phone over it -___- Oh well! New phone nowwwwwwww sooooooooooo heck!!! hehehehehehe..

Written papers are just days away.. But I felt that this time round I'm slacking and not putting in any effort =/ NOoooooooooooooooooo! WAKE UP JAC! TIME TO TURN ON UR ENGINE!!!!!!

Jeff-fa-fa~~ Dunhammmmmmmmmmmmmmm~ Dot Commmmmmmmmmmmmm~~~~~ xD

For those of you who are waiting for this entry, there you go...(Be prepared to see some vuglars coming on the way)

Firstly, I'm disappointed with myself.. Due to the C++ assignment that just submitted 2 days ago, I felt that I did not give my best shot and effort.. I couldn't solve the problem, I'm totally not confident with my answers at all.. For the first time I'm feeling so helpless, there was no one I could approach to for help.. On the actual deadline day, Dad asked me if I've finished my assignment so that I could help him with some stuff, I said I've given up on solving the problems that I've met, as the tears in my eyes started searching it's way out.. Seriously, I've never felt so helpless before.. It was so shameful to cry in front of outsiders as well (the clerk of works and QS were around =/)

Secondly, why I said I felt so helpless is because 2 of the uni frens I have made me very very disappointed with their actions and stuff.. One of them who kept saying "aiya this assignment very easy very easy" but as the deadline is nearby, she kept saying "sianz dunno how to do", either that or she was just idle and play FB. The other ger, who claimed to be a programmer when I first met her, asked me lots of very basic and stupid programming questions when I was already so upset over my assignment. Even a basic constructor, she would also ask "is it just like that? does the constructor need to include things inside?" Oh come on! If you really did programming before, you should have the knowledge of this!!! And also, it's not the first time you asked me these common-sense questions. The previous c++ assignment also! *BULL SHIT* Claim self to be a programmer.. PUI!
And other uni friends doesn't have programming background, so there you go.. Almost everybody was waiting for me to save them for this assignment.. Who wouldn't feel helpless?

At this moment you must be thinking "why jac didn't approach her lecturer for her assignment problems?" right? Yes, this is the last point that I'm disappointed with.. I can tell you, this tutor is fucking useless! For the last 3 lessons, I realised that he took 1 hour to go through slides, 30mins to debug his program,15mins break for us and 15mins to look for his program in his laptop. At 9:30pm, he would say "ok class, that's the end of the lesson, you may stay if you have any questions for me" Fucking shit... Wasted 30mins to debug his program lor! I won't blame him for using 15mins to search for his program in laptop because he is handicap, who needs to use magnifying glass. However, as a tutor, he should prepared his want-to-try-out methods before coming to the class and not on the spot trying out other methods and getting errors.. He should have the common-sense that he shouldn't do this in front of the class.. This is not only wasting his own time but also the students' time.. We are here to learn but not to watch you trying to debug your program!!! 30mins can go thru alot alot of programs or even go into details explaining that why is this constructed like that or whatever! BUT NOT FUCKING DEBUG FOR 30MINS! Also, more pissed off thing is that, he failed to debug and just skipped that question! This is why I don't want to approach him for help, because he doesn't leave a good impression and also the trust that he will be able to help with my questions.. Seriously.......... KNNCCB!!! I would never ever go to this person's class anymore.. Waste my time going to his class and next day I'll feel so tired for the other lesson whereby that class's tutor is so much better..

Ok I'm supposed to be doing my work, but couldn't resist to post this joke that 1 of the foreman told me during lunch.

Long time ago, there is this old-old ah ma took a double deck bus. She went up to the upper-deck to look for seats. Awhile later, she shouted and quickly went back to the lower-deck. For a few stops, every single person who boarded the bus, was warned by her not to go to the upper deck. Soon, there's this young uncle boarded the bus and the ah ma did the same thing by warning the uncle not to go to upper-deck. The uncle asked "why don't go to the upper deck?" The ah-ma replies "up there don't have driver, very dangerous, don't go up there"

Bahh, been ultra-super-freaking-crazy busy nowadays. I think I'll take days to finish this entry xP

Work::
My workplace at Seletar has been moved to Jurong due to the new project, but currently I'm still 'in-charged' of this site and stuff, hence I'm sharing the same container as the Clerk of Works. Good thing is that, this Clerk is not as strict and niao and evil as the previous clerks. This guy has taught me alot alot of construction things and also communication skills, which will be a great help to me in future. Automatically, if I've got any doubts or even my dad has, we will approach this Clerk for help (who's salary is not paid by us =X ) Anyway... through him, I've learnt something that I'll always keep in mind... "don't doubt yourself if anybody think of you that way, because they are not there to go through and don't know how much effort you had put in. Just do what you think it's right" =) Just closed this LTA tender but in 3rd place =( haiii~ the economic is so bad till tenderers give up on profit and bid for projects =/

School::
This is the part where I almost mental breakdown. I had to complete 3 assignments (c++, info sys and financial planning), 2 online quiz (C++ & info sys) and a construction course + test (BCSS) within 3 weeks. But luckily it's all over =D Hoho, i'm officially a Building Construction Safety Supervisor now =P Passed the BCSS test and today just looked through all my assignments marks, pretty good =D Happpeeeeee~

Friends::
Life occupied with so many things going on, didn't have much time to hang out >_< I miss you guys!! BFF5, poly peeps, BiTC peeps~~ hao xiang lian ni men~~~ Hope all of you doing well for work/sch ^^
I think the only group I met the most everyweek is uni peeps xD Thanks to Chloe, she made this somehow logical method of storing food using belt hahaha~ After we finished our dinner, she complaint that she's not feeling full at all. She stood up then pull her belt and say "ok feeling full now". hahahaha! Now we know how to store food if necessary =P

Anyway, RIP Yoshito Usui san, creator of crayon shinchan. Can't imagine no more crayon shinchan to watch in future T____________T

As I was driving today while listening to A-Mei's new album, I thought about what's the difference between her new album and old ones. Apparently it sounds the same to me. But what A-Mei said she had to keep herself isolated just to turn into A-Mit... which is sooooooo weird? Why does a singer has to do this to herself? I just don't get it.. From a nice and hot ger turns into a bloody, cruel singer? =/

Anyway, this made me wonder if we have another personality living in us, which is still hiding and unable to unleash itself? Or perhaps there's a limit that's controlling us not to unleash it?

Everybody judged by my appearance and say "ahjac is so man.. bla bla bla.." but deep down in me, I think i'm just a petite timid ger.. Sometimes I do want to do things beyond my limit though, but failed =/ I really hope that if I have a brave, full of guts, good at talking kind of personality living in me, I don't mind releasing it =)

Wao~ Look at the time.. It's 4:31am and I'm typing an entry here =x

Just came back from midnight show actually. I must admit, I'm getting older and no longer have those good energy for midnight shows especially at 1:30am LOL. Felt so half-dead while trying to pull myself to be awake before the movie. Luckily enough, the movie was quite good which made me to be more awake and managed to watch the whole movie (unlike transformer 2 =__=||)
Anyway, this episode has motivated me to read book 7 (yes yes I've bought the book once it's released but still havent flip through it =x) Thanks to those spoilers who had mentioned about 'Who' killed 'who', which made me lose the interest in reading book 6. So screw you guys!! So, pls keep your mouth shut while I start on book 7 ok!

Woo~ I'm having a sleepy head now~~ So~~~ Jya~~~~ Oyasumi Minna~~~

After months of hardwork, Ban Chon has finally gotten ISO Certification =) Dealing with pain-in-the-ass people has really squished all my brain cells out of me for the day.. But good thing is our company successfully gotten it =))) So yayy~

8 of July 2009, the day to remember.. the day to receive shocking news in the morning.. the day that made us shred a tear...

Yanling, be strong and strive through the toughest time of your life. We will always be here for you... Jiayou!!

mm-ha-ha mm-ha-ha~

Omg, I almost forgotten about my journal X___x Back to keep it alive! =D

Okay, what's new...? Let's see...

Firstly, just gotten my exam results. Pretty surprised with the results for few modules like Audio Tech and Video Tech. As I mentioned, I've studied things that I don't even understand, so getting this kind of result is like WooHoo! =x As for that filming proj, better than I expected =) I wonder how they grade us o.o

Secondly, I bought my personal desktop. After weeks of researching (on hardwares), stressing (my brain) and stretching (my pocket x.x) I've finally decided what specs to get.. Though some will say I had overspent, or even waste money getting it. But, I believe I won't regret for at least years.. IT stuff is always advancing, and what I've got is almost mid-high-end.. Moreover, I don't wanna rely too much on my laptop =) So whatever ok.. lalala~

Next, went to cycle at East Coast with BiTC gang (Sok Ee, Ivy, Fubao, Robin and Aaron). It's been almost a year since I met them.. So much to catch up and update on ^^ Oh! and met the lost-touch-sec-peep, Ronald Tan.. Didn't meet him at all for 2 years! X__x Anyway, good luck to the guys who are in NS and gonna ORD in 6 to a year time..

Lastly, good luck to Lim Kun Han! Who had just stepped into NS (which is known as Hell to him) See! I'm so good to type yours in 1 paragraph lol!

ROFL~

Never felt this drained before.. Though I've finished the pile of works on hand, Dad gonna train me in becoming a QS by learning how to do tender. After hours of looking and measuring of roads and drains on drawings, my vision has gone blurred and third eyelid has appeared Z___z Once in the car, he said to me "if you want to take over the whole system, you need to be trained as a QS so that can tender projects" At the moment, I was like "I never thought of taking over the company. I'm still coping with my studies and I'm just glad that I'd struggled through first sem and that's all" @__@ Oh well, let's just see how the it turns out after I graduate =)

Been feeling unwell and irritated for the past few weeks. Even lost the feel of playing games.. What's happening to the gamer?? No idea... Never felt this sian before.. zzzzzz

Oh lastly, good luck to those who just started their part-time studies! I know you can do it.. If I can struggle thru, I don't see why you can't.. Jiayou!!

Wazzzzzzzzzzzup peeps!

I can officially announce that my first year first sem is over! Written papers and the f-up project finally over!!! Never felt so relieved after months. Overall the papers were quite alright and able to do majority of the questions. I think this is the first time I'm so slack over papers. Firstly, I didn't study 'that' much, just stick to the guidelines only. Next, although I started revision about 1 week before my papers, however, nothing goes into my brain for the first 5 days =X. Lastly, I didn't double check once I finished my papers! Why? Well, just say that I need pee after my first paper and I'm hungry after my second paper. So ta-da~ I'm the first in my class to walk out of the examination hall xD

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD..... YES! THAT F-KING PROJECT FINALLY ENDED!! OMG I COULD FEEL THE THRILLLLLLLLLLL~
No more face-to-face with peeps that I don't wanna face! lalalala~! Gosh I just recalled that how fake am I in front of few of them during the shooting. I can't imagine that just nuts and peanuts matter can have conflicts till like this. This kind of people how to go out work in the society? Tsk tsk tsk.. Conclusion is don't go to class so early and mix with people who are same as early as you. Furthermore, don't group with early birds or strangers too! LOL! Else in future if you are late for just 1 meeting, you will get shoot with emails =D Oh lastly, don't give real email address if possible LOL! Else every morning you will receive at least 3 emails regarding the project. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!

Alrighty, time to continue to do my work.. Back to just-working-life-Jac~

Nothing much to blog actually, but just to update some of you that MY EXAM IS OVER!! YOHOHOHOHOHOHO~!
Left that filming project to go before I can officially announce that I managed to survive through Sem 1 =)

That's all peeps~ Back to work yo~~ じゃ～

YoHoHoHo!! Assignments madness finally over!!!! Thank god that I'd managed to complete all on time and even before expected dates. This coming friday is the last day of school and then exam next X__x I have no idea how the hell I gonna start my revision. Totally catch no ball for the whole semester =X Anyway! I'm feeling so relieved that 80% of the things are over now *phew*

Just applied modules that I want to study for next sem. Again, taking 5 modules since I'm left with 1 last UCore to clear then don't have to take any UCore in future! YAHOO! Apparently this course will take up 2.5yrs to complete X__x I always thought 2 years only =/ Bahh what the hell~ I'm just gonna get over whatever shits thats gonna happen before eligible to take that piece of paper..

Oh ya, I've just came back from Genting (which I think nobody knows about it =P) And once again, I went to deposit 800RM (approximately 400SGD) into jackpot machines. All must be thinking "siao ah jac! waste so much money on it" Haha! I couldn't help it ! It's just so addictive =X I couldn't help but wonder, there's only such a slim chance of winning money, but why there are still hundred or even thousands of people loithering in the casino? xD

Literally, people uses the word TGIF with happy and excited tone. However, for me, I'll say it's MGIF (My God It's Friday) Seriously, I hate friday class now. Though I get to meet those girls, I'm just pretty sick of the module (also, will see the BCB.. jeez...) Plus there's morning class and camera + lighting practical test tomorrow. Argh... I'm 50% worried for the test of course, cos previously we did not have much hands-on. Haiz... I think stress has striked on me plus that BCB's email which made the flame in me started burning again. I couldn't sleep well nor eat well since tuesday. haiii...
I couldn't help but sigh... why in this world there are these emo, childish, brainless bitches? or they made themselves to be this way just to get sympathy?

I wish I'm the girl.. singing with Raymond Lam >___<